Senescence
~RLS
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…and I awoke one morning, years ago, and planting my feet on the floor, I realized for the first time that Mom and Dad and my friends were only part of my existence, and that there must be more, in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I went on about my day.

…and years later, now in high school, I awoke one morning, and planting my feet on the floor, I realized for the first time, that I was no longer “playing with friends”, but instead “hanging out with my friends”, and it occurred to me that my perception of friends and family had changed. And I thought, there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I went on about my day.

…then one day, receiving my college degree, I realized that my friends from the college, I no doubt would not be seeing anymore, since everyone would be making their own life, and it would be unlikely that I would be part of it. And so I thought, there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I went on about my day.

…and through years of struggle to pay for my living, and having a good paying job, I realized that I really had no money left, after paying for the colleges of my two children, who of course are no longer children, but to me, they will always be my children. And so I thought, there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I went on about my day.

…and so I decided it might a good time to start saving for my future, so that I would be able to exist, when I became too old to generate more money, but instead be forced by my own physical and mental degradation to rely on my savings, and whatever the government may help me with. And so I thought, there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I went on about my day.

…and now having retired, and sitting here on the park bench with my good friend, who also lost a spouse, we are talking about the “good old days”, and remembering them quite well, which is strange, since I have trouble now remembering what I did only a few minutes ago. And so I think, there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I go on about my day.

…and I am aware that someday, possibly soon, there will be no more in store for me, at least not as I know it now, in this existence…but I still think there must be more in store for me.

…but what will it be? And so I go on about my day.

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